When my friend told me that teaching is a lifestyle, not a job, I didn’t think it would take up so much of my life. And I was wrong. I miraculously made it through the first week of teaching despite the lack of curriculum, and having some of the most challenging students in the school (thanks to all the prayers I received). I have never prayed this much in my life–on my way to school, before I sleep, before I start my first class, on my way back.
Surrendering myself to God and letting Him carry my burden is definitely a wonderful feeling. I am extremely busy, but I am not feeling stressed or uneasy, because I prayed, and prayed for peace and calmness for the entire week.
Truth is I do like the subjects I teach, which is probably the only reason I took the job. But what I didn’t realize was 80% of teaching is about classroom management. Most teachers, like me, thought that their main job is to teach, to pass on knowledge about something. But what we really should be doing is to create a learning attitude. When we make a subject more interesting, students change their thinking about the subject and therefore have the desire to learn. Since I don’t have a teaching degree, this mentality is absolutely mind-blowing for me. Just because a person is smart/knows something very well doesn’t make him/her a good teacher. I am sure we’ve all met or seen teachers like that.
Anyway, I am still learning and this is really a good opportunity for me to challenge and test myself. I am going to take it one day at a time and continue to trust that God will lead me through this journey.